Large Disapointment the First

I’ve spent a few months now living in the Land of Responsible Choices, and really, since I rescinded my citizenship to the Land of AND, I haven’t had to face any choices that I’ve found particularly tough to work through.

Until now.

I am not going to Germany.

I’m sure many of you are now asking “but Jen, I have heard nothing about this, why on earth would you have considered going to Germany in February?”

Believe me, it’s not my ideal winter vacation. But Neil is going for work, and he happens to be going to a city in Germany that is a 20-minute drive from where the majority of my maternal relatives live in the Netherlands. With his airfare, hotel and per diem covered, we would only have to cover my flight and any extra meals & excursions we would take.

When we lived in the Land of AND, this is one of those instances where we’d add “just a bit more” to our Line of Credit, and “take care of the balance next month.” And conveniently forget about all the other times we’ve done just that, and the large amount we need to pay off already.

I’d drain our newly formed savings account for the plane ticket (funny, nobody flies the cheap charters to Europe in the middle of winter), and we’d put those pesky extra excursion costs on the Visa. While we wouldn’t put ourselves into danger of missing our mortgage payment or anything, it would not follow our newly set budget and goals.

Now, living in the Land of Responsible Choices, we’ve realized that while it would be a good opportunity if we were debt-free, it’s not a good opportunity if it derails our ability to be debt-free by the end of the year. Which it would. So I stay home.

And I say this all very matter-of-factly, but in actuality, I’m highly disappointed. It’s never easy to have to cancel something out that you’ve pumped yourself up about and started planning for. I’m working very hard on convincing myself that I’ll be okay with this.

I’m consoling myself by remembering this means I’ll be in town to go to Northern Voice, which I’ve missed the past couple years. And we’ll still be on-track to pay off our debt, after which time we’ll have the financial freedom to go to Germany pretty much whenever we want (preferably when it’s not the bleak midwinter).

But in the meantime, if any of you are around the last week of February and first week of March, and want to take some time to cheer me up and keep me company while I’m flying solo, the distraction (and perhaps some praise of how virtuous I’m being in my responsibility) would be very welcome!

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6 thoughts on “Large Disapointment the First

  1. Sue

    Good for you – that sounds like a VERY hard choice and I can really understand your disappointment. But I think you’re on the right track with focusing on the opportunities you’re creating for yourselves by getting out of debt! *pat on back*

  2. Tawcan

    Sounds like a tough choice to me. I’m sure you made the right decision. You’ll get over the disappointment soon.

    Here via Netchick. She said hi too.

  3. Laura

    Aw, that is rough that you won’t get to see your family. I can totally relate to the finances being rough at the moment – I was laid off last year and still not employed, so I totally know how the tight budget feels and all the things you have to give up.

    You will feel better about it when you accomplish your goal of being debt-free. And maybe I’ll get to meet you at Northern Voice!

  4. airdrie

    I hope you got registered before it “sold out”.

    As for the travel decision, you need to go with your gut. There are no right or wrong choices here; both choices are good and bad. Just go with your gut. Next time you may chose differently.

  5. peechie Post author

    Thanks for the encouragement everyone 🙂 And yes, I did get my NV ticket early, so I’ll definitely be there. Looking forward to seeing lots of familiar faces, and meeting some new ones!

  6. Tanya (aka NetChick)

    Hey Jen! Great to see you playing the MEET n’ GREET again this weekend! …It’s been awesome having everyone play along!

    Sorry to hear about Germany — But, you’re gonna have a ton of fun with us all at Northern Voice, instead! 🙂

    Hope to see you back playing some more this weekend, if you have time! 🙂

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