This Fish has a beautiful post on love today.
Thatâ€™s the part about love thatâ€™s always been hard for me â€“ stepping outside of my own security, to take a chance at humiliation to show I care. But Iâ€™m learning as I get older that itâ€™s not about me. Itâ€™s about dropping defenses… exposing previously hidden faults and letting people hear me say, â€œthis is how you know I love you.â€
Someone recently told me I’m a bit of a mystery and hard to get to know – and that’s probably true. I rarely let people in very far. It takes me a long time to drop my defenses, and just be there to let someone accept me as I really, truly am – which is really what love is all about.
It’s easy to shut down and say no to love. I’ve done it for so very long. But what kind of life is that? I’ll tell you, it’s one that I’m sick of living. My family deserves more. My friends deserve more. I deserve more.
So to all of the people in my life that are so special to me, I promise that I will start to try harder to open up – to let you know I love you. Because I get the feeling that in return, I’ll probably find out that you love me too.